A Dad-ness Not Worth Celebrating


“Happy Father’s Day!!”

Standing and looking out the sliding glass doors overlooking the pond our back, a strong message resonates in my mind: “Yours is a Dad-ness not worth celebrating.”

Some will immediately run to chastisement, admonishing me that, “That kind of negative self-talk is unbecoming a child of God.”

Probably so. But this is not a message that I’ve dreamed up on my own. God has brought me down a very long path of healing. The Toxic Shame messages of my growing-up years have pretty much subsided.

No, the message that resonates so powerfully in my mind and heart today is due to the very poor job I have done as a Dad.

Granted, the years of abuse I suffered at the hands of my own father somewhat handicapped me in a lot of ways. But I’ve had a hand full of good examples over the years, men who loved God, cherished their wives, adored their children.

Too selfish – that was the greatest handicap I had to being the kind of dad God intended for me to be.

Too busy trying to prove I wasn’t as worthless as I felt.

Too focused on accomplishing things that would improve my image that I neglected to invest in the most precious moments of my children’s lives.

And too selfish in my need to feel loved that I couldn’t see the love they had for me that was free and unconditional – which was exactly the kind of love I needed and couldn’t receive.

The children have turned out pretty well in spite of my inability to sacrifice my selfish wants and needs to love them the way they needed and deserved to be loved.

They are strong of character, long on integrity, and their work ethic is par excellence. People like and enjoy them, consider themselves blessed to have them as friends. They are looked up to and admired. I like them!

What was missing were enough of the picnics, the fishing, the popcorn and movie nights. Missing were enough of the long walks along the river, teaching them a skill that would be worthwhile, and not anywhere near enough laughter!

What I did invest in them was a love and reverence for God and His Word that I trust is true enough and deep enough to be sure we will walk with Jesus together one day.

If I could go back and recapture any one of the lost moments, any one of those missed opportunities, any of the bad choices and turn them into good ones, I would do it in a heartbeat.

But I will never regret that they know and understand the nature and character of God to such a degree and such an extent that they have long known the He loves them more than I ever could –so much so that they realize His greatest love for them was shown them when He sent His Son to pay the penalty for their sins.

Jesus Christ is their personal Lord and Savior, of that I am sure and for that I am deeply and eternally grateful.

My life may not be much worth celebrating this Father’s Day because of what I got wrong, but I got the most important thing right: My children each know God as their Heavenly Father and rest confidently in His love for them.

I love them; I’m proud of them; I know I will see them in Heaven one day…

I can smile and know that, despite my worst, I done good.

Soli Deo Gloria


Published by: Pastor Warren Lamb

God has granted me the honor of being adopted as one of His sons and of serving His people as a Bible teacher and Biblical counselor. My primary area of counseling expertise is often referred to as "high-end" counseling: survivors of trauma and abuse, especially childhood sexual abuse, church abuse, narcissistic abuse, domestic oppression, sex-trafficking, kidnapping, and sole-survivor counseling. As a survivor myself, God uses my own healing journey to help bring hope and healing to others (a la 2 Cor. 1:3-4). Abuse and oppression are NEVER okay with God! When it comes to oppression and abuse, there is no "Switzerland," no neutral territory - you either side with the oppressor or with the oppressed; there is no middle ground. To find out more, visit our website https://tilbcc.com

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6 thoughts on “A Dad-ness Not Worth Celebrating”

  1. Happy belated Father’s Day, Pastor Warren! Thank you for your honest reflections on Dad’s Day. My dad is in heaven, and when I did stop for a moment to remember it was Father’s Day yesturday, I thought of your example and care for me the last two years. Reading your reflections, I thought of your pursuit of knowing God more and letting him transform your heart and life, and I thought of the tangible ways you care for your children today and for the people God brings into your life. It makes me think that you have, “despite your worst, done good”. I saw a cause and effect between my dad’s pursuit of God and his ability to love better. If my dad was alive, I think he would write a similar reflection. Thank you for perseveering in faith and love for God and others. I love you and miss you! Heather

    1. Thank you for the kind words, Heather. It has been a joy watching you grow in your understanding of God’s love for you. Blessings to you and your family – tell you mom, “Hi!”

    1. Melissa – Thank you for your comment. I am going to follow your blog and ponder what you share.

      As a recovered psychologist, my assessment of the website you linked to in your comment is simple: while secular psychology can dynamically articulate the symptoms of broken humanity, they lack the greatest remedy: the ability to bring those broken people face-to-face with the God who created and loves them.

      It is here that I have seen hundreds upon hundreds of people (over 2500, actually) find healing and transformation. My prayer is that more and more people will come to discover that they have inherent worth and value because they are created by God in His own image – and NO ONE can take that away from them.

      Blessings to you and yours,

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